Life and Stuff

Hey - how about this? Only a week since I've posted! I'm gettin better, yes?

I've been thinking about blogs. Mine's not controversial or cutting edge. Kind of boring, actually. You can tell from reading it that I love dogs. Love to write. Not much about me.

I'm never going to be able (or willing) to have a controversial blog. Don't have the time or the energy. Life is too hectic for me to devote that much time to trying to stay cool .

So, what do I want you to know about me? What am I willing to share? Well, for one, I love being my age. Mid-forties are a lot of fun. Liberating. Unreal, actually, until you get there and realize a lot of the stuff you worried about in your twenties and thirties doesn't really matter.

I love to read and camp and fish. I love my husband and my daughter. I value friends, but don't forget or forgive easily when they treat me poorly. I enjoy laughing and dancing and flirting and having fun. I cry at sad movies or even tv shows, and sad songs. I find romance book ideas in the most unlikely places, the most recent in a Nickleback song, number 5 on their newest CD, which puts me in mind of my newest angel books.

Speaking of music - I like all kinds. Hard hitting rock. Ballads. A few country songs and singers. Alternative. Even classical. Nothing I like better than driving in my car with the sun roof open and a great song blaring on my stereo (Bose speakers, the best!!!)

I work hard at everything. Running the insurance agency, managing employees, training new people. Excercising (which I miss like HELL since I still have the broken foot - sigh). Writing.
Keeping my marriage fun and interesting. Keeping my family happy. And shopping for pretty clothes and jewelry and shoes - when the darn foot gets healed . I love to read and finding a new author or a great book is as good as it gets.

I'm intense and dramatic at times and quiet and reflective at others. I find people fascinating and scary and like to watch from a distance so much that I have to remind myself to get involved. And still it's difficult sometimes.

I donate to animal causes. I want to adopt every stray dog and cat, but know I can't, so I cry.

I admire my daughter, who has a special bond with children, and is a teacher. Though she may not realize it, the impressions she makes can reverberate throughout their entire lifetimes.

I admire my husband, because he focuses on his goals and goes after them. But mostly I admire (and envy) his easy camaraderie with people - he likes everyone and they seem to like him back. He really *cares* about people, no matter who they are, and they sense this. When he becomes someone's friend, he will do anything for them. He says he cannot NOT help a person in trouble, and where I tend to look the other way and mind my own business, he's the first one in there to offer help. He's a great husband.

Ok, hmmm. Back to boring me.

I spend far too much time on the internet. I love a good margarita on a Friday night, especially with chips and salsa. I love mountains and shadows and fog and really miss being able to go out in the sunlight (see my post on skin cancer.) Ok, to clarify, I miss *laying* out. I still go out, albeit with SPF 45 on. But basking in the sun - no can do.

Other than that, I'm comfortable being with myself. I don't have problems eating alone or shopping alone, though I miss having a close girlfriend to hang with. My friends are mostly other writers, and we see each other at conferences. A lot of them are loners like me, and when we get together, it's usually in the bar .

Hmmm. I'd like to buy a big motorhome someday and travel around the country with my hubby, dogs in tow. For now, we have a 27 foot camper trailer and we enjoy that. I'm trying hard to like our new boat (see earlier post,) but I sort of wish we had just a pontoon boat, as I'm not much for water sports.

Whew. That's all the soul-bearing for now. Hope I haven't bored you too much!

Later.